Monday the 12th of April was the first day of preschool for Riaan . We woke up at 6:30 which in our house is never been done before . Riaan woke up tired and grumpy. I woke up scared, anxious and unsure if I..read it I could do it .
But we did .
We pulled into the school 10 minutes early but I couldnt bring myself to get out of the car!I sit there watching mom after mom happily dropping there kids off.
I am sure your wondering what I was thinking ? Right? I know you want to know.
Well my the truth I was thinking look at all those stupid moms ! I was almost sad for those children whos parents wanted them to love school. Truth is I wanted to run away and go home . I wanted to snuggle my Riaan in bed and watch his 101 dalmations movie.Then the teacher started to take the kids in to the school.While I was still feeling sad for all those poor kids!
Well then it happened. I snapped out of it and said ok i can do this . I walked him in, with him crying and unhappy. I left him in class of 11 other children and 3 teachers.
I hugged and kissed him goodbye . He cried. I put my brave face on. As I walk through the school doors and see my car. I loose it . My tears come and I honest to god think I should just go back in and get him . I honest to god thought that.
I may be crazy .
But 2.5 hours later I show up and his sweet little face lights up when he see's me and I am reassured from the teachers he had a good day . That he loved recess ( just like his mama did ) and that he ate lots of gold fish( big surprise I am sure he sucked the Gluten right out of them).
Mmm, gluten. He's got he fix, now as long as they keep them coming, he'll keep going. You are one great momma, to let him experience this and really give you all a chance to see what might be possible. And, if it doesn't work out, you tried.
ReplyDeleteRiaan is so lucky to have such a thoughtful momma; one who is concerned about every aspect of his happiness. ~xo, b!
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you did better than me I sat in the parking lot balling my eyes out for thirty minutes! You are so brave! I am so protective over Robert and letting him go to school without me was one of the hardest things Ive ever had to do. I know we don't know eachother that well but I knew you were an awesome mom the second I met you! I am also very happy Riaan had a good first day! Robert didn't have one until the third week!!
ReplyDeleteHow's it going now hun?
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