Our first day of school

Monday the 12th of April was the first day of preschool for Riaan . We woke up at 6:30 which in our house is never been done before . Riaan woke up tired and grumpy. I woke up scared, anxious and unsure if I..read it I could do it .

But we did .

We pulled into the school 10 minutes early but I couldnt bring myself to get out of the car!I sit there watching mom after mom happily dropping there kids off.

I am sure your wondering what I was thinking ? Right? I know you want to know.

Well my the truth I was thinking look at all those stupid moms ! I was almost sad for those children whos parents wanted them to love school. Truth is I wanted to run away and go home . I wanted to snuggle my Riaan in bed and watch his 101 dalmations movie.Then the teacher started to take the kids in to the school.While I was still feeling sad for all those poor kids!

Well then it happened. I snapped out of it and said ok i can do this . I walked him in, with him crying and unhappy. I left him in class of 11 other children and 3 teachers.

I hugged and kissed him goodbye . He cried. I put my brave face on. As I walk through the school doors and see my car. I loose it . My tears come and I honest to god think I should just go back in and get him . I honest to god thought that.

I may be crazy .

But 2.5 hours later I show up and his sweet little face lights up when he see's me and I am reassured from the teachers he had a good day . That he loved recess ( just like his mama did ) and that he ate lots of gold fish( big surprise I am sure he sucked the Gluten right out of them).

3 Years old

I cant believe Riaan is 3.

His birth was a long c-section . I was hoping for a vaginal, not medicated birth by a man OB. What I got was a stressed out man because of my high blood pressure that I think he was giving me . But either Way he was born . 5 pounds 4 ounces and just screaming.



He was tiny and perfect and we loved him so much.




After 11 hours in the NICU to make sure being born at 36 weeks had no side effects he was rolled in and I knew from the moment I looked at him our lives were forever changed.



We have struggled as new and young parents. From doing what others told us to following our instincts.





We soon found our groove and we decided what are baby wanted he deserved.




We decided to follow Attachment Parenting Philosiphys because not only did they feel right but wow were they easy .



As we connected and bonded with our son by babywearing ,co-sleeping and breastfeeding he grew strong and larger everyday .




Today we celebrate that my 5 pound baby is a thriving 70 pound 3 year old who enjoys life so much . The joys and struggles of having a special needs child in our life is pentyfull but I wouldnt change it for the world.

The decision has been made

Riaan is going to preschool.April 12th.

They just want me to drop him off. I have decided to drop him off and hang around the school that day . I wont be in class but thankfully they have an observation window where I can look in and he cant see me .

I am thankful that they will have an assistant in class to give him 100% attention for the first week . I am so scared and nervous, but I cant know if he is ready without trying.

http://www.nsd.org/education/school/school.php?sectionid=31

I really did like the teacher and she used words that comforted me like .

Nurture

Cared

Loved

Protect

Please keep us in your thoughts as we continue this journey of the unknown.